Such Deep Despair
It
wasn't very long ago,
I felt such deep despair and woe.
I prayed to a God I thought I knew,
Who hated me for the things I'd do.
In tears I prayed, just let me die,
For life had seemed to pass me by.
All I ever did was fail.
God let me die, send me to hell.
I didn't want another drink,
To smoke a joint or even think,
And then, some Power unknown to me
Picked me up and helped me see.
That I'm not bad, I'm only sick.
There was a way, that I could pick.
To take one day, and try to live,
A life of truth, that He would give.
He put me in a room of friends,
Who shared how life, on truth depends.
They told me that if I'd admit,
I'm powerless, my pain would quit.
My eyes were opened, as there spoke,
Of how they too, had spirits broke.
They shared how they had landed there.
With broken hearts, and deep despair.
They asked me to keep coming back,
and let them show the love I lacked.
Then suddenly I realized,
that these were angels in disguise.
Keep coming back, they said to me.
We'll show you love, then you will see.
There's One with power, who will manage your life.
He'll ease the pain of inward strife.
They said a way of life we'll show,
Take it easy and just let go.
They took me by the hand and said,
This is the Way, That we were lead.
Now I thank God with every breath,
He didn't fulfill my request for death.
I thank Him for His blessed Grace,
For I have finally found my place.
Written by: Rebecca Ann
rbowlin14@aol.com
To My Son, Love Mom
I put it in my God box and tucked it way inside
My fears and tears and long lost dreams, I put them there
to hide
I left it in a corner in a closet down the hall
And asked my Higher Power to come and take it all
The burden was too heavy; I kept falling on the way,
So caught up in my sorrow that I’d forgotten how to pray
And then one day I stumbled and I landed on my knees
Then I figured while I’m down there, maybe He would hear
my pleas
So I lifted up my burden; tried to share my stinking
thinking
Please help me find the way to stop the drugging and the
drinking
Then deep inside I felt it, a peace came over me
And then I knew it was within myself, I would find
serenity
So I put you in my God box, my love for you
sublime
The best thing I can do for you is live One Day at a Time
So know, my son, I love you, may you never feel alone
And I will share with you my God box, until you find one
of your own
Written by:
Susan
Sallen5339@aol.com
Step One
We admitted we were powerless
I choked on those first words
My job was to fix everything
That admission was absurd
The harder that I struggled
The tighter my world got
It wasn’t my addiction
I had to make you stop
My life was utter chaos
Of course, no fault of my own
The more I fought against it
The more I felt alone
When at last I had surrendered
I had no spirit left
I felt my burden lifted
No longer felt bereft
And then a brightness touched me
A warmth within me grew
That God can’t do his job for me
If I won’t let him through
I opened up my swollen eyes
Like a newborn baby might
Then opened up my heart again
And welcomed in the light
And though I feel such sadness
A sorrow that’s profound
I can’t remove this weight from you
Those shackles have you bound
So I handed you back over
To what was meant to be
Sorting and rebuilding
Reclaiming what was me
And through this revelation
Your journey to get through
I’ll move ahead and shine the light
And lead the way for you
Written by Sue
Sallen5339@aol.com
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